Open Letter to My Teen Self

“Oh I’m not teen anymore.”

Yesterday, I turned 20 year old. The first thing came to my mind as I woke up in the morning was “Oh I’m not teen anymore”. Then, I felt mixed emotions. That’s why I decided to write an open letter to my teen self to let all the feelings out and start the second decade of my life with fresh mind and soul.

I've gone through a lot in my teen years, life wasn't easy for me. There were many stages I had to face, the bad and the good. I know it'll get worse, but I'm grateful that my teen self somehow prepared me to take on the real world. And here's what I want to say to her.

Dearest Teen Fads,

July 14^th of 2011, you turned teen. You were so happy back then because finally, you are an official teen. As a rookie teen, you went through the first stage of puberty and it was easy.. at the beginning. When certain situation was flashed unto your face, you definitely faced a big change in your life in 2012. This change was horrible, I know, I still can remember. Thanks to your friends, you went through that horrible time surrounded with supportive and positive people. You’re lucky because you got a lot of dependable circle of friends. Unlike today, I have to be picky and try not to trust a lot of people. I’m so glad though that you got to spend a lot of lovable times and made wonderful memories with them. Because ‘til now, they’re still in my heart and forever will be.

Facing depression wasn’t easy for you. 2012-2015 was the hardest journey you had to face. Adjustments from one place to another, family problems, friends problems, school problems, and self problems. It was like an ocean was thrown to you and you don’t even know how to swim. You almost died. But look at you now, you’re still alive. You survived and that’s because of you.

You’ve changed, Fads. You have. You’ve seen the reality of the world and you only had one goal and is still your goal ‘til now. Be a better person. You decided to do that in 2016 and change came. This time, it's a good change. You went to a battle with depression, and you won. You create good relationship with your family and friends. You studied hard, and earned recognition. You’ve improved your physical appearance, girl you even went to the gym. Haha! (Which I think you should do now and stop eating cheese. You’re not a rat, Fads!) You’ve improved your mental health and started meditating and developed good mindset. You’ve improved your spiritual being by taking your religion faithfully. You can even encourage yourself without any help from anyone. 

You can stand alone now. I, the 20 y/o Fads, is beyond thankful for the change you’ve made for the better. And I promise you, I won’t let you down. It’s going to be a roller coaster ride though, but I love roller coaster.

It’s honestly sad to think that you have to go away and I have to continue growing, however I also promise you that I will still be kiddie and won’t take life too seriously. I will have fun and I will be happy.

Thank you and good bye.

Sincerely.

Present Fads 

What would you say to your teen self? 
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The Astron

@imfads